14 Jan Reality check
And all that you have dreamed is almost there, right there in front of you ready to grab it..You can grasp it..It looks like a cloud of illusions, not sure if it is really there near by or if it is still so far away.
As if you have been in the desert craving for water all this time, now you see a flourish oasis with waterfalls at the horizon, but is it real? You try to reach it but you are so drained, so exhausted..It was a long fucking walk..It has been hard..And what kept you going, the faith, now is obfuscated by the tiredness of the body and the mind..
Because when the feet could not walk anymore, you pushed it through with courage against all the odds, with all the energy left in your soul which was being sucked and lost on the way, you went through it even though it hurt every fiber of you..You made it possible by focusing on the good and keeping up your spirit, believing in something more, some force guided through all of it and pushed you forward..
You are almost there, at the finish line, where all the new opportunities lies in..However, as soon as you leave behind sheds of you, deadly bargains, cut the chains of a so long lasted weight, you don’t feel euphoric as you thought you would..Instead it feels weird, empty and so worn out..
You should been able to run now towards the light/the holy grail/the font (whatever you wanna call it!)..You are lighter and you see the end of the tunnel, it’s getting closer, but you can’t run..You start wondering what the hell happened..You ask yourself “Why am I feeling so lost now and the very end of it?”..You spent so much time thinking about it that when it actually happens, you just don’t know what to do with this new acquired freedom..You have been caged for so long, the door is now unlocked and open, you can now fly away..So you start doubting if you can really fly..And shockingly a startled thought of fear of leaving the cage, the old version of your life that you so much wished to change, is starting to get cozy now, almost warm..You are so afraid to leave it, even though it poisoned you a farewell of time, you kinda forget all of that it was, you are so f*****g petrified..You come to realize the cage is all you know, it is a shelter, you got used to it, it got uncomfortably confortable for some reason..You had to accommodate while you were there otherwise you would got crazy. You had to furnish the damn cage, that’s how long you have been there..Uuuuuuuhhhhh..
So you back the f**k off at the opposite side f the exit door of the cage and prepare yourself for ejection..Hell yeah..Since you don’t really know how to fly, you might as well lunch yourself out of it..It could be a bit abrupt since your sight is not used to point to far away the cage..On the other hand you feel that underlying knowledge of your nature..You will readjust, you will come around it once you have stepped out into the unknown..It’s part of who you are..No goodbyes, no string attached, no ball and no chain, nothing but yourself..Sure, you are going to miss the confort of the lair, you made it your nest, your hidden place while you were dreaming big, You learned the lessons, you took one for the team and now you are so ready to new adventures..You are so ready to shine bright..
Bye bye bitches, see you from the outside of the cage this time!
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